I know I cannot..
For the past few years I have wrapped myself in learning and learning and coffee.
Dealing with issues and learning more through Landmark education, Tafe,Music,Design,P.R, Film and Screen.
I have also begun to reconnect with old friends and even my father's friends. Some remember him, some don't, even forgetting and then remembering slight traces of him..
Interesting..
I even assisted many within the Entertainment Industry, when they asked me. I went and did a massive research on the whole of Entertainment Industry. The biggest ever done.. Still finding interesting things.
Some people say I did way too much according to certain research establishments. Found that out when I went to their workshops..
They showed me ways to manipulate research for companies so that their stats are correct and what focus groups do, etc. Interesting
I did not want to manipulate anything. I just wanted answers and wanted to see what people in the industry really wanted in their lives.. I found that..
Along that journey I found myself assisting their families, bring back relationships before there were any regrets. Seemed silly by most standards..I just did it without second thought.
The realisation that many alienated their families for their passion and dreams was amazing..
They took a step forward and did what they wanted to achieve, some did not get it correct but at least they did it.. Some of their partners manipulated situations, which confused things for a few.
Did I waste my time in doing all this..No..is my answer. I was privy to so many in giving me complete trust.. As I really asked hard questions and personal ones. Open ended. As I wanted to learn more.
Then I realised I had lost so much. My own personal wants and needs. I kept confidences' of others and listened to their stories which they wanted someone to know. I thank each and every one for giving me their trust. I am grateful that you opened up to me.
I write my life in poetry. In a way all my feelings are shared with each one of you. Have a book published and it is placed in the achieves in Australia, USA and in England and several of my works are in Harvard and Princeton, where it gets to be discussed on by scholars.. They were the first to read any of my works as several professors want me to allow that to happen, when they found them on my sites at that time.
I was the person who was a no one but the wife. I designed and build two homes. I encouraged immigrants to follow their trade and introduced them to people who assisted them. Now I am proud to say they are higher up in many organisations. Many asked me why I don't use them as contacts to gain more recognition in things. I am not like that.. I am so proud of all of them. I won't intrude .. I can be cheeky, playful and very serious. I am proud of all my friends no matter who they are. I acknowledge each one for their part in my life, yes, even my ex husband and ex lover. They are who they are and I don't want to change anything. You see what all I have been through has made me who I am today and in that I am grateful. As I have done things which assisted others without second thought of not doing those things. I accepted many things and still fight other things. Yes, I want a home, a lover, a partner, not wanting to be alone any longer. I am ready to trust again.
We cannot live a life without love, compassion or forgivnessor a life without people. We are human.we all have needs and wants.
There is so much more which I have shared but the above is just a bit more..my resume is getting too big with what i have done.. busy..not really. There is one thing though which has happened.. I can be very disapointed in people. Sometimes it depresses me for what they and I go through. I love people..but I do keep a distance.. as sometimes what happens pains me deeply .. I still have the ability to be in other's shoes.. There is another point in which is fact.. Died several times according to medical records.. and I was suppose to be dead in 2002 then beat the odds by medically dead last time in 2005... how many times can there be.. each time was sent back and revived with music and one mans voice..intersting..huh?
You have unlimited possiblities and you are the ones who make the biggest differances in lives.. i believe in all of you..as you can make the futures of all imaginable
For the past few years I have wrapped myself in learning and learning and coffee.
Dealing with issues and learning more through Landmark education, Tafe,Music,Design,P.R, Film and Screen.
I have also begun to reconnect with old friends and even my father's friends. Some remember him, some don't, even forgetting and then remembering slight traces of him..
Interesting..
I even assisted many within the Entertainment Industry, when they asked me. I went and did a massive research on the whole of Entertainment Industry. The biggest ever done.. Still finding interesting things.
Some people say I did way too much according to certain research establishments. Found that out when I went to their workshops..
They showed me ways to manipulate research for companies so that their stats are correct and what focus groups do, etc. Interesting
I did not want to manipulate anything. I just wanted answers and wanted to see what people in the industry really wanted in their lives.. I found that..
Along that journey I found myself assisting their families, bring back relationships before there were any regrets. Seemed silly by most standards..I just did it without second thought.
The realisation that many alienated their families for their passion and dreams was amazing..
They took a step forward and did what they wanted to achieve, some did not get it correct but at least they did it.. Some of their partners manipulated situations, which confused things for a few.
Did I waste my time in doing all this..No..is my answer. I was privy to so many in giving me complete trust.. As I really asked hard questions and personal ones. Open ended. As I wanted to learn more.
Then I realised I had lost so much. My own personal wants and needs. I kept confidences' of others and listened to their stories which they wanted someone to know. I thank each and every one for giving me their trust. I am grateful that you opened up to me.
I write my life in poetry. In a way all my feelings are shared with each one of you. Have a book published and it is placed in the achieves in Australia, USA and in England and several of my works are in Harvard and Princeton, where it gets to be discussed on by scholars.. They were the first to read any of my works as several professors want me to allow that to happen, when they found them on my sites at that time.
I was the person who was a no one but the wife. I designed and build two homes. I encouraged immigrants to follow their trade and introduced them to people who assisted them. Now I am proud to say they are higher up in many organisations. Many asked me why I don't use them as contacts to gain more recognition in things. I am not like that.. I am so proud of all of them. I won't intrude .. I can be cheeky, playful and very serious. I am proud of all my friends no matter who they are. I acknowledge each one for their part in my life, yes, even my ex husband and ex lover. They are who they are and I don't want to change anything. You see what all I have been through has made me who I am today and in that I am grateful. As I have done things which assisted others without second thought of not doing those things. I accepted many things and still fight other things. Yes, I want a home, a lover, a partner, not wanting to be alone any longer. I am ready to trust again.
We cannot live a life without love, compassion or forgivnessor a life without people. We are human.we all have needs and wants.
There is so much more which I have shared but the above is just a bit more..my resume is getting too big with what i have done.. busy..not really. There is one thing though which has happened.. I can be very disapointed in people. Sometimes it depresses me for what they and I go through. I love people..but I do keep a distance.. as sometimes what happens pains me deeply .. I still have the ability to be in other's shoes.. There is another point in which is fact.. Died several times according to medical records.. and I was suppose to be dead in 2002 then beat the odds by medically dead last time in 2005... how many times can there be.. each time was sent back and revived with music and one mans voice..intersting..huh?
You have unlimited possiblities and you are the ones who make the biggest differances in lives.. i believe in all of you..as you can make the futures of all imaginable
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